Encouragement, Testimony Tuesday

Testimony Tuesday: Berna Deene’s Story

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Berna Deene’s Testimony

(Berna Deene shared this with her family and friends on social media
and is sharing it with us today)

“Let the redeemed of the LORD SAY SO,
whom He hath redeemed from the hand of the enemy!”
[Psalm 107:2]
“Come and hear, all ye that fear God,
and I will declare what he hath done for my soul. ”
[Psalm 66:16]

My dearest family and friends,

I know you see what is on my timeline, I know because periodically you will hit the like button. I am asking each and every one of you to share this with your family and friends.

I spent the majority of my life dead spiritually. I wouldn’t admit there was a God, I didn’t like God and wanted nothing to do with Him other than a prayer now and then asking for help when I got myself in trouble. I never believed He heard me and as it turns out, it says in the Bible that He does not listen to the prayers of (unrepentant ) sinners. (Proverbs 15:29 “The LORD is far from the wicked, but he hears the prayer of the righteous.” And again in John 9:31 “We know that God does not listen to sinners. He listens to the godly person who does his will”)

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My life was long, longer than I wanted. I was ready for it to end. I had seen everything, done everything, was afraid of everything even though most thought me quite gregarious and bold. I was so sick of living, so sick of this world, running myself ragged trying to fix the world while blind to the fact that it was not in my control to do so. I was listening to a song on my computer one day…..Laura Story singing Blessings….and as she sang “this is not our home” I knew! I knew Jesus was with me. He had come for me. He calmed me….THEN, THEN, GOD, started drawing me, He called me (and I don’t mean I heard Him yell “Berna Deene”) but He called me just the same. He put me on my face and knees in my living room all by myself and I cried out to Him. I ask Him to forgive me.

I was a rebellious drug addicted rock and roll feminist. I believed in pro choice and pro gay marriages, I believed when you died you died. Period. I believed and lived like there was no tomorrow and indeed most the time I was hoping there would not be. He forgave me All of that. He opened my blind eyes, He replaced a heart of stone which I was born with, and gave me a throbbing heart of flesh which beats every moment and cries out “my God, my God, thank You for being my God.” He changed my mind when He changed my heart. I went from pro choice to knowing it was no choice. It is God’s choice. I went from believing everyone had a right to love whom they wanted, when they wanted and who did it hurt. It hurts them. And it makes God very very angry.

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You see, in Genesis, right at the beginning as He created EVERYTHING, He set the way. Man, woman, child, beast. Marriage was between one man and one woman. Man was the head over the woman and meant to protect, provide and if necessary lay down his life for her. Woman was to be of support and submit to her husband just as we all, men, women and children are to submit to the LORD. She was to bear the children, teach and raise them to love, worship and obey God. But Eve listened to evil in the garden, deceived she decided on her own to eat the forbidden fruit, then offered it to Adam who ate it also even though he knew God said it was not allowed. From then on each and every one of us have been born dead spiritually and it isn’t until we are born again that we can reconnect with our Creator.

Why am I writing this? I have had loved ones die, that I know are not in heaven. I was not born again at the time of their dying so I could not be a witness to them about Jesus, born of a virgin, leading a totally sinless life, hanging on the cross with the sins of His sheep heavy on Him, dying to save me, and lo and behold resurrecting in 3 days just as He said He would! There are no coincidences in life my friends. The LORD GOD, knows all, sees all, and will judge all. Jesus is coming back. He said, if you repent and believe He will in no way turn you away.

Repent doesn’t just mean I’m sorry, It means to turn around from your sins, and leave them behind, Remorsefully bow at the foot of the cross where HE shed His blood to cleanse us. Doesn’t mean we don’t falter, slip, are perfect. No way. He was the only perfect one. But if you think you are born again, and your life hasn’t changed completely, drastically, and you don’t hate what you used to love, like drugs, lying, cheating, stealing, porn, abortion, cussing, gossiping, then you need to think again.

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If you are not now Christ centered, waking in the morning and thinking of God, praising and praying and obeying His Word, think about Him through out the day and in bed as you lay down at night…you need to re-evaluate yourself. If you aren’t reading the Bible, the Word of God every day, if you don’t go and read where you can find out what HE expects and commands of us, how can you say you love HIM and you are His? If your soul isn’t grieving for the lost, the unsaved, the unrepentant, if you are not sharing your faith and Jesus, please reconsider if your new birth was in fact the born again that Jesus Himself spoke of.. None of us are guaranteed the next minute let alone tomorrow. Do not put off seeking HIM. Time is so much shorter than you think. I love you and I want to see you in heaven. I remain …..in praise, prayer and need of prayer.

Your sister Berna Deene


Ladies, God is still at work in the hearts and lives of His people, including yours! Would you like to share a testimony of how God saved you, how He has blessed you, convicted you, taught you something from His word, brought you out from under false doctrine, placed you in a good church or done something otherwise awesome in your life? Private/direct message me on social media, e-mail me (MichelleLesley1@yahoo.com), or comment below. Try to be brief (3-4 paragraphs or less) if possible. I’ll select a few to share on the blog another time. Let’s encourage one another with God’s work in our lives!

8 thoughts on “Testimony Tuesday: Berna Deene’s Story”

  1. I praise God for this beautiful and powerful testimony. I had to stop and pray in the middle of it, because I was jealous of Berna’s “throbbing heart of flesh which beats every moment and cries out ‘my God, my God, thank You for being my God.'” I feel as though my transformation is so slow, that I’m not as “on fire” as I should be in spite of praying, fasting, reading, studying, and meditating on Him and His word day and night.

    There’s a fundamental part of my character that is in subjection to the spirit of fear. It’s as though I’m stuck in Romans 7—doing what I don’t want to do, and not doing what I want to do—because I fear man more than I fear God. It makes me sick. It makes me feel like a hypocrite. Sometimes it makes me feel like giving up, going back to my old life and my old ways. Although I never did drugs, I certainly held many of the views that Berna once held. It would be so easy to heed the siren call of the world. But I can’t. I just can’t throw the gift of salvation back in Jesus’ face.

    But what do I do? How do I make God big, and make people small? I know in my mind that fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. But how does that seep down into my heart? How can I go from thinking it to acting on it?

    In my prayer in the middle of reading Berna’s testimony, I asked God, “Why I can’t have a ‘Berna experience’? Why can’t the spirit of fear just be banished from my life? Why can’t it ‘just happen’?” He hasn’t answered.

    So…I will keep praying. I will keep fasting. I will keep reading. I will keep studying. I will keep praising Him. I will keep thanking Him. I will keep asking, seeking and knocking. I will keep seeking first His kingdom and His righteousness. I will keep abiding in Christ.

    I will begin to fight with weapons of warfare that are not carnal, but are mighty in God for the pulling down of strongholds. I will cast down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against God’s knowledge. And I will bring into captivity every fearful, every unfruitful, every sinful thought to the obedience of Christ.

    Wow! After I finished that last paragraph, it dawned on me that God just answered my prayer. He’s teaching me how to fight—in His strength, not in my own. I just need to keep doing what I am doing. I just need to take some steps towards making people small in spite of my fear. I just need to trust Him—trust that He knows how to transform me and sanctify me, and trust that He will deliver me at His appointed time.

    Proverbs 3:5-6 will be the bread that sustains me today. Thank you, Michelle, for the opportunity you provided for my breakthrough. To God be the glory!

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    1. So happy for what God is doing in your life, Leah. Sometimes when I get to feeling the way you’re feeling, it helps me to switch from focusing on my sin and my frustration with my slow growth to focusing on passages of Scripture about peace, God’s love, and God’s patience. One of my favorites is Psalm 103:14:

      For he knows our frame; he remembers that we are dust.

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      1. Oh my dear sister Leah! While reading your comment this morning, I was thinking of how God deals differently with each of us. Some, He calls from the busy life and they drop their nets and follow Him, some He opens the hearts, like Lydia of purple, no fan fare, no explanation, but belief and submission, obedience. Some He knocks off our high horse, like Paul, like myself. Your testimony, like any other child of God’s is powerful because it is His! It is our flesh that cries for different, …better. I am an older woman. I was older when the LORD saved me. I used to wish HE had done it earlier. Then I immediately remember, He is in time, on time, every time. It is all HIS time. By the end of your post, my throat was clogging with love and my face hurt from the joy of unshed tears. Oh dear one, what a wonderful God we serve! I will pray for you sister. And thank you Michelle for sharing God’s glory thru my story.

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  2. Such a joy to read both ladies testimonies and very edifying. Yes, I agree we must press on in the word and in prayer to our God and He will answer in His time and His way. I pray also to keep God Big and people small so not to fear men but to bring honor and praise to my Savior Jesus Christ. God I pray make me bold to praise you Always!

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    1. Leah Morris, I myself could have written practically to the T your posted response to Berna Deene! Thank you so much for your transparency and testimony, it infuses hope into my soul.

      Love in Christ,

      Cathleen Johnson

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